"What?" is my best friend.
Be it when i wake up in the morning, or dress up for office; when i am sitting in the bus, or walking up the hill.
"What?" is my constant companion.
"What am i doing this for?", is what i usually ask myself. "What is it that i seek?", "What is it that i want?", "What will it give me?", "What nonsense?".
"What?". Is there something wrong with me? Am i a failure? I question myself on what i put myself through everyday. I see myself decay and deteriorate; weary and abused. What with all the empty promises people make, i end up still trying to figure out what made me do all this.
Desolate, my heart lies. I am deprived of the human touch. Friends seem far away, though pleasant smiles frequent around. I see my life in a new light. Away from all comfort, away from those childish days. I seem to be utterly lost.
"Why?". "Why am i bereaved?". "Why should i think i lead a meaningless life?". I should be happy rather. I am an individual now. I will be what i make of myself.
"Why?". "Now that the day was not as bad as i thought it would be, why do i moan everyday?"
There is a whole new world left for me to conquer, a vainglorious and egoistic world. I am an achiever, i have set my sights high. There is no turning back, I've embraced my new life and i will come out good. I will come out jubilant.
God helps those who persevere. Persevere in virtue and diligence.
Honestly the questions that you've asked yourself are precisely what haunt me.
ReplyDeleteI like this.. but could have bin a little more elaborate. Keep up the good work :)